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[Mar. 15th, 2006|05:53 pm] |
| The Keys to Your Heart | 
You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now. |
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| Fuck YEAH! |
[Jan. 12th, 2006|03:50 pm] |
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Hey, guess what?!?!
I GOT INTO WAGNER!!
& I got a $42,000 scholarship!!
&& my mom DOESN'T have cancer!! |
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| decadecadecadecadecadecadecadecadecadecadeacadeca....(and so on) |
[Jan. 4th, 2006|08:57 pm] |
| [ | I'm feeling... |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | ...:*music*:... |
| | Faggot - MSI | ] |
Last night I didn’t sleep at all. The one time I was able to fall asleep my mom woke me up when she came into my room to turn my TV off. Normally I’d get mad at her, but I’m sure she couldn’t sleep either so I just didn’t say anything. I talked to a couple of my friends about it today at school, but I wasn’t in a very open mood. I talked to my friend who’s little sister had brain cancer, and my other friend who’s dad went in to find out if he had it around the same time as my mom, but he lucked out. AJ came over to talk to me today and it was nice seeing him and knowing that he was there for me. I went out to eat with Allison and Mona. Mona is really awesome. Allison had told me, but it was something I had to see for myself. She got me really interested in Young Life. I wish they had one down here.. Shannon called me and we talked about how Mark is still sketchy. I feel bad for him, but come on. I have never even seen a girl act like that before. Oh well.. It was awesome talking to her b/c her mom did the whole kemo thing which is what I’m afraid of because I heard it was really hard. But she reassured me and it really helped talking to her about it. I love Shan!
RANDOM THING OF THE DAY: DECA is a CULT. |
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[Nov. 30th, 2005|06:34 am] |
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| | Dirty Little Secret <33 | ] |
So the second half of my trip kicked the first part’s ass!! After Carina came our family seemed to be getting along a lot better. She spoke Italian me her and Rachel could like go top the bars and shit. Rachel almost hooked up with a kid named EMO! That woulda been pretty sweet if u ask me. “My ghetto older sister hookin up with some Emo kid…” but yeah. Padua has like dunk college students all over the streets at night and our hotel was like right next to the biggest University there so it worked out rather nicely… good stuff :]
This week is all about mad play prac. I don’t feel ready for the show, but there is nothing to do about it now! Our first performance is tonight for the senior citizens.
Come see TARTUFFE
“Sinning in silence, is no sin at all.” –Moliére
December 1, 2 & 3
Northern Highlands
7:30PM
Yeah, do it up!
I saw Aly Tartini on Sunday! When I came home the first thing I did was go to chill with John and Dave in Ramsey and Dave is friends with her. I missed that girl! Apparently we still look alike, haha.
RANDOM THING OF THE DAY: “If I walked around with no belt, would you care? If I walked around with a belt, would u care? Then why is it that I get in trouble when my belt is undone?!?!” |
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| "I'm too cool to turn a heart down!" -Fall Out Boy (edited by Al & Sam..aka me) |
[Oct. 27th, 2005|03:47 pm] |
| [ | I'm feeling... |
| |  chipper | ] |
| [ | ...:*music*:... |
| | sophomore slumpor comeback of the year - fall out boy | ] |
I'm no barbie doll
I'm not your baby girl
I've done ugly things and I have made mistakes
And I am not as pretty as those girls in magazines
I am rotten to my core if they're to be believed
So what if I'm no baby bird hanging upon your every word?
Nothing ever smells of roses that rises out of mud
So I realized today that the play is a lot sooner than I thought it was.. I really need to work on memorizing my lines! =/ Ohhhhhh wellll... Everytone was freaking out yesterday b/c Paster posted the parts for the musical. I am half upset that I didn't audition and half happy that I don't have to deal with all that drama this year and I can jsut amke some money. I am sooooo broke! I don't know how to keep money in my wallet. It jsut like falls out the bottom or something. I was digging through coins at lunch today. My parents don't even give me enough $ to eat. ARGH! speaking of ARGH! Pirate party tomorrow night =] Bean wont be there which is a major bummer! but it should be fun. I'm excited. Me and my friends are gunna made some damn fly pirates ;] haha. And Saturday is the Link partay!! OMG! I wait all year for this (and new years, hehe) I am so fuckin excited. This is gunna be an awesome weekend.
RANDOM THING OF THE DAY: Just when I think I'm healthy again the doctor calls me and says I'm still all infected and such... WTF?!?! WEll I guess I can look at the glass half full.. these mad crazy stomach pains are gonna eventually go away (once they fix me properly!)
I'm off to work... PEACE OUT NIGS! |
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| Please put the doctor on the phone 'cause I'm not making any sense |
[Oct. 23rd, 2005|09:27 pm] |
| [ | I'm feeling... |
| |  high | ] |
| [ | ...:*music*:... |
| | old time rock n roll | ] |
Tonight at my grandma’s I met this really awesome guy. He’s my cousin Dan’s friend who is back from Iraq for a few weeks. First he taught me how to make dreadlocks. That in itself was cool enough.. but then we started talking about Iraq and stuff and how much he hates that people in America (news stations) think that this war is a spectator sport. It’s so true. It’s bad enough that he has to watch his own back and the men that he’s with, but the fact that he has to watch the back of the news casters who haven’t even been trained just makes things more difficult. They come in and think that they are doing something wonderful by filming soldiers giving barbies to little kids, when that’s not what they are really there for. They do things like that until someone gets shot at then the next day they do it again until someone is shot at until someone dies…. He told me a lot of his own opinion on a lot of other things and it was just really interesting to talk to him. I’m glad I got the change to hear the truth for once without any outside influences.
Other random things of my weekend:
-It takes me and Bean a really long time to get vodka.
-Allison needs to be babysat.
-My mom likes to create drama.
-I can’t make myself throw up.
-My older sister hates me for reasons beyond my control.
-Sarah sucks at finding keys that are right next to her.
-West Milford coffee is way better than Stateline coffee.
-When you are going somewhere that you know you’ll be hugging people then you should wear a big fuzzy white sweatshirt.
-(insert all the things that I couldn’t exactly remember here)
RANDOM THING OF THE DAY: "I want to be all you think that you see." |
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| This is such a pity you.. we should give our love to each other. NOT this hate that destroys us. |
[Oct. 16th, 2005|10:03 pm] |
| [ | I'm feeling... |
| |  stressed | ] |
| [ | ...:*music*:... |
| | The Chicks Dig It - Chris Cagle (yeah it's country, DEAL!) | ] |
WARNING!: Don’t bother reading.. I just needed to babble a little (and the tea my mommy made me) to calm me down..
Everyone bitches about how junior year is so important and that’s what college’s look at so I did my work junior year. I made honor roll which isn’t a big shit for most of you, but I’m no frickin genius so I was proud of it... But now all I’m hearing about is how senior year is important because the standard that you set for yourself junior year needs to be at least met or else colleges think you’re a slacker and don’t want you. Kinda like how if you get shitty grades in school but awesome SAT scores you are looked down upon because it shows that you are smart, but you just don’t try. So how does hearing all this make the girl who had fucking old peoples disease and was out of school for a total of 2+ weeks feel? Like major shit because I am falling way behind in everything and my grades are going to suck this marking period. I never really gave a shit about my grades and I think the only reason I care now is because I actually have a school that I really want to get in to. All that talk about college is finally starting to click and it’s freaking me out like everyone else said it would. It’s not that I didn’t believe them, but I just couldn’t relate. Now I can relate and it blows. I wanna go back to being a dumb freshman… no. actually I don’t. I want it to be exactly one year from now. I want to be in college away from my house and the annoying little shit in the room next door. I want to forget about all the petty high school drama and I want to be independent. It’s weird because some of the people I work with are way older than me. I have the same job that they do, but that is their life. They don’t wake up in the morning and go to school. They just go to work. The same place I go to after I’m done with the crap of school. It’s not like I’m working at ColdStone where everyone is my age. If I’m capable of doing something now that other people consider their career then what’s the point of college? You go to college so you can get a good job. I know that there are better places to be working than Express, and that’s not what I want to end up doing with my life, but I don’t wanna be filthy rich either. I don’t want a big lonely house and a fancy car that I need to worry about fucking up. Yeah money would be nice. I’d love to have a beautiful piece of property and be able to afford to travel all around the world, but I’d rather be happy. It’s not that I’m an unhappy person at the moment, but sometimes I feel like there is a whole secret behind all this bullshit and someone’s just gotta figure it out.. but then I realize I need to stop thinking. SO that’s what I’m gunna do now.. I’m done thinking. I’m going to school tomorrow seeing a few teachers and if they won’t cut me some slack then I guess I’ll just deal. I think five hours of homework is more than enough for one person, even if they do have the entire weekend to do it. In the end me being upset about something that I can’t change is pointless, b/c I don’t need good grades, a fancy college, and some high paying job to be happy (although it could be a plus).. when it comes down to it I have people who truly care about me and I truly care about them and that means more to me than anything in the world.
...wow, I think I just had the infamous senior breakdown.
RANDOM THING OF THE DAY: “Most people work to live, but Americans live to work.”… fuck that! |
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| Treesome?? |
[Oct. 16th, 2005|09:46 am] |
| [ | I'm feeling... |
| |  silly | ] |
| [ | ...:*music*:... |
| | this is such a pity - weezzzzer | ] |
So this weekend has been fun & I actually didn’t do much. Most of it consisted of going to Bean’s house and hanging out and watching my friends be weird, but still.. that’s fun. Allison has a pic of me and bean as the background on her cell. Kinda strange, but she’s just cute like that I suppose. Lol.. I went back to work yesterday and to my surprise I had a paycheck waiting for me. A small one, but still a paycheck that didn’t say $0.00. Brooke has started working there which should be fun. And this really nice girl Kate who reminds me of Allison’s ex-boyfriends little sister Megan who is the shit, haha. And if you’re looking for a job… WORK THERE! (we are slightly understaffed) I gtg do a new floor set today.. I’m excited. Is that weird? Oh well!
RANDOM THING OF THE DAY: The trio is all men.. Al, Sam, & SRH (sir?) |
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| Doo da doo doo doo doo, doo da doo da doo doo... |
[Oct. 12th, 2005|08:45 am] |
| [ | I'm feeling... |
| |  bored | ] |
| [ | ...:*music*:... |
| | The Used.. the end. | ] |
So here I sit between Alicia and Robyn in the Library, because I’m a slacker and decided I would write myself a note for gym today… and my myspace wont work. SCREW THAT!
I have no school tomorrow, which is pretty cool, but I have to go see more colleges. At least one of them has the major that I want, but that’s about the only positive thing about them.
I reallllly wanted to go see Alkaline Trio with Bean, but my mom is a dyke as we all know and wont let me.. major bummer!
Umm, yeah.. idk what to write. I’m bored & school smells.
RANDOM THING OF THE DAY: Alicia wants to bone Channing Tatum & Mark Wahlberg. |
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| weh you [cry] i [cry] I cry along with you... when you [smile] i [smile] I smile along with you...<3 |
[Oct. 11th, 2005|07:38 pm] |
| [ | I'm feeling... |
| |  working | ] |
| [ | ...:*music*:... |
| | Footprints - T.O.K | ] |
Omg, my friend Stephan was in a really bad car accident and now he’s in the hospital. I hope he’s ok. He’s a mad cool kid! I got a message telling me… "he was tryin to get to class cuz if he was late one more time, he'd loose credit. so he was speeding from vesuvios. they said his driver side door was smashed almost into the center console and that he ricoched off 2 trees. he ruptured spleen so they had to take it out, and has some brain swelling so they put him in a medicne induced coma, and the doctors are hoping he'll be ok. they're keeping him the coma to see if his brain swelling goes down." If you pray.. please pray for him!
RANDOM THING OF THE DAY: Word spreads like WILD FIRE! |
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| I Talk Too Much |
[Oct. 10th, 2005|07:53 pm] |
| [ | I'm feeling... |
| | tired | ] |
| [ | ...:*music*:... |
| | We're All On Drugs - Weezer (no really.. we are) | ] |
I spent my ENTIRE weekend with Miss Allison & I didn’t get sick of her… that takes skill. Props to Al! haha. She has a LJ now. ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) al_gal <~~ Be her friend b/c she kicks ass!!
I saw Monclair State today.. it sucked like major cock.. I decided I have some requirement in a college… one of them being able to run outside and roll in the grass… I’m still lovin the idea of going to Wagner. I fought with my mom about it yet again, b/c she’s a big smelly dyke. Actually no I shouldn’t say that. She took me shoe shopping today and got me some nice shoes for my big ass mother-fuckin feet to wear to work. Yeah.. took like forever, but we found some ;]
RANDOM THING OF THE DAY: Al - He is everything you want. He is everything you need. He is everything inside of you that you wish you could be. He says all the right things at exactly the right time.. (mumbles)
Me – Why did you stop singing?
Al – BECAUSE I NO LONGER HAVE TO!! |
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| I wish I knew why!! |
[Oct. 7th, 2005|09:09 pm] |
| [ | I'm feeling... |
| | tired | ] |
| [ | ...:*music*:... |
| | Everything You Wnat - Vertical Horizon | ] |
He is EVERYTHING I want. He is EVERTHING I need. He is EVERYTHING inside of me that I wish I could be. He says ALL the right things at EXACTLY the right time, but he means NOTHING to me and I don't know why.. [slightly edited.. he should be she.. I should be you.. u know how it is]
Damn, I haven't heard that song in a loooong time. Allison asked me about it over the summer and I called her like 2 seconds after ehr house b/c I heard part of it on the radio (i'm a loser like that). Well yeah, me being the loser I am decided to over analyze the lyrics like I do with every song and I told Allison what I thought and she totally agreed. Sry, but I can't write the conclusion here... but if you're smart you'll be able to figure it out.. I promise ;]
RANDOM THING OF THE DAY: My magic has made SRH+Allison=GRANDE AMIGAS, again! haha |
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| I wish I knew why!! |
[Oct. 7th, 2005|09:05 pm] |
| [ | I'm feeling... |
| | tired | ] |
| [ | ...:*music*:... |
| | Everything You Wnat - Vertical Horizon | ] |
He is EVERYTHING I want. He is EVERTHING I need. He is EVERYTHING inside of me that I wish I could be. He says ALL the right things at EXACTLY the right time, but he means NOTHING to me and I don't know why..
Damn, I haven't heard that song in a loooong time. Allison asked me about it over the summer and I called her like 2 seconds after ehr house b/c I heard part of it on the radio (i'm a loser like that). Well yeah, me being the loser I am decided to over analyze the lyrics like I do with every song and I told Allison what I thought and she totally agreed. Sry, but I can't write the conclusion here... but if you're smart you'll be able to figure it out.. I promise ;]
RANDOM THING OF THE DAY: My magic has made SRH+Allison=GRANDE AMIGAS, again! haha |
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[Oct. 6th, 2005|09:40 pm] |
I guess my new thing is taking those myspace bulletin thingers and placing them on my LiveJOurnal (even tho few to no ppl read this, but hey w/e)...
Don't assume that guys won't care where you are, because we do.
It makes us feel secure to know that our girlfriends aren't off flirting with guys we've never heard of.
Also, don't talk about your ex-boyfriends.
We never have, nor ever will respect or like them, nor do we want to hear about them.
When you do, you're asking your boyfriend to be jealous.
You're asking your boyfriend to lose trust.
On that, don't hump everything that walks into the room.
We don't care if you talk to other guys.
We don't care if you're friends with other guys.
But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.
It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.
Also, when we tell you you're pretty/ beautiful/ gorgeous/ cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.
Don't tell us we're wrong.
We'll stop trying to convince you.
The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.
Yeah, you can quote me.
Don't be mad when we hold the door open.
Smile and say "thank you."
Let us pay for you.
Don't "feel bad."
We enjoy doing it.
It's expected.
Smile and say - everybody together now - "thank you."
Kiss us when no one's watching.
If you kiss us when you know nobody's looking we'll be more impressed.
You don't have to get dressed up for us.
If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have, put on every kind of makeup you own.
We like you for WHO you are and not WHAT you are.
Don't flirt with guys when we're not around.
We'll find out. Trust us.
We have eyes everywhere.
And when we find out, we're pissed.
Not necessarily with the guys you flirted with, more-so with you.
Don't take everything we say seriously.
Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it.
Don't get angry easily.
Stop using magazines/media as your bible.
Don't talk about how hot Tom Cruise or Brad Pitt is in front of us.
It's boring, and we don't care.
You have girlfriends for that.
Whatever happened to the word "handsome"?
Why does everything have to be "hot/sexy"?
I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with "Hey handsome!" instead of "Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy" or whatever else you can think of.
Claiming girls or guys to be "hot" shows immaturity.
Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren't being treated right by a guy, don't wait for him to change.
Ditch his sorry, disgrace-to-the-male-population ass, and find someone who will treat you with utter respect.
Someone who will honor your morals.
Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.
RANDOM THING OF THE DAY: I wanna know iwhich part of the above is true/false. |
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| And You are the best U ever!! |
[Oct. 6th, 2005|06:38 pm] |
| [ | I'm feeling... |
| |  grumpy | ] |
| [ | ...:*music*:... |
| | That Whistle Song.. U KNOW! | ] |
Ok, so I admit that I’m not the wisest person in the world, and people have been through more shit than me… but I wanted to post this b/c out of the shit I have been through I learned that this really is true!
Think about this... You may not realize it, but it's 100% true.
1. At least 2 people in this world LOVE you so much they would DiE for you.
2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
4. A SMiLE from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6. You mean the world to someone.
7. If not for you, someone may not be living.
8. You are special & unique.
9. Someone that you don't even know exists, loves you.
10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.
12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you BELiEVE in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.
13. Always remember the compliments you received. FORGET about the rude remarks.
14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know.
15. If you have a GREAT FRiEND, take the time to let them know that they are great. (I decided to delete the do this and/or blah blah bull that was put here, because I believe it should jsut be passed on b/c it's true & it will make ppl smile.)
RANDOM THING OF THE DAY: I think I figured out how to get through to my mom. Subway boys.. here me and Allison come! haha |
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| House Arrest Can Kiss my ASS! |
[Oct. 6th, 2005|03:31 pm] |
| [ | I'm feeling... |
| |  upset | ] |
I have been stuck in this fucking house for way to long and it’s really not fair at all. All I did was ask my mom if I could go grab a bite to eat at Subway with Allison and she’s like “NO! You’re not going anywhere! If you leave this house you are going to contract a disease that will kill you!!!! IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT?!? Well NO!!!!!!!” dfs;ldfsldfsoiumvw4qpeou5rjoi qu4jt90i1p2o5mop!!!!!! I hate this. I’m fucking 17!! It’s not fair that I can’t leave my goddamn house. I was so excited that I was finally feeling better, but that makes no fucking difference. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHh
RANDOM THING OF THE DAY: my mom is a dyke, but you already knew that. |
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| Hi, I'm old. |
[Oct. 3rd, 2005|02:40 pm] |
| [ | ...:*music*:... |
| | Garbage - Why Do You Love Me?? | ] |
I just got back from the doctor and I not only have Shingles, but you can add sinus infection and parasite to the list… ewww grooooooss. Yeah, not fun at all. My mom and the doctor were talking about taking me to the hospital and I started freaking out. I didn’t realize how scared I was of the hospital until I was literally about to go there. Idk why though. It’s a place they help people. I guess I’m just fucked up like that. Well anyways I’m like an old lady and need to take a bafillion pills and the pain makes me wanna kill small children (not really. I could never kill anyone. It’s not my thing)….. so yeah.
RANDOM THING OF THE DAY: I’m popular in Allison’s neighborhood. Idk I’m on the phone with her now and she just told me this so I decided to type it. She wants to know what my deal is with all the Bosco boys.. U know. Whatever. |
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| ouchies.. itch, itch |
[Oct. 2nd, 2005|08:22 pm] |
| [ | I'm feeling... |
| | discontent | ] |
| [ | ...:*music*:... |
| | That's whistle song... "hey girl you... blah blah blah" | ] |
I just took fuckin mad pills... lots of codeine (u know, doc's orders) & I'm still in pain. WTF Mate? I can't go to school tomorrow so if anyone wants to stop by bring me movies or a little a&c project (I lurve those) then feel free!! haha.
RANDOM THING OF THE DAY(I got bored): Unlike 10 other states, New Jersey does not currently protect its medical marijuana patients from arrest and imprisonment. However, the legislature is currently in session, and it is considering the New Jersey Compassionate Use Medical Marijuana Act. medical marijuana has received the endorsement of several groups in New Jersey, including the influential New Jersey State Nurses Association
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